I mean, that’s like. The one word echoing through my mind right now.

Things haven’t been feeling real. Well, they have? But they also haven’t. I don’t know. It’s not a bad feeling, more like- a realization of sorts, that things are passing but they don’t even have any mass in my mind, that I reach out to them and they just phase through my hands like smoke.

This type of thing happens when I work, I think. Mainly just a type of focus in which nothing else matters anymore, where I throw myself into one goal (currently finishing this website) and picking at it until I’m closed to being satisfied with my product. But I’ve never thought too much about it- it comes and passes, and soon enough I’m done and I don’t need to worry about it.

Maybe it’s just staring at a screen for too long? I don’t know. My head, specifically the back of it, feels pretty heavy right now. That’s a weird way of describing it, but it’s the only way I can think of trying to approximate this feeling. My head feels heavy- or my neck is just weak.

Maybe I should start doing neck push-ups. Neck workouts? Neck pull-ups? Then my head might not feel so heavy anymore.