(No, this is not poetry. I’ll probably post some other poetry later today though, so don’t be too disappointed.)

I’ve been writing a lot of it recently.

I started writing them because I thought it was easier than writing cohesive narratives and documentations of my day, and also because with writing things that are obvious on paper comes a deep sense of insecurity. Because then you know that everything you write will be understood in the way that you understand it, and sometimes writing is all about spilling your soul but spilling your soul means that others can drink it.

I, uh. Don’t want people drinking my soul, ngl. So.

But yeah, the point is, poetry is a lot easier to write than… prose. And it’s much easier to write than whatever this post is, so I’ve been writing a lot of it here recently, because I’ve been really busy and saving time is one of my biggest priorities.

I don’t know how to feel about poetry. In some ways, it’s very limiting, but that’s completely my fault. I find that when I want to write poetry, the words I use a lot are “please”, “God”/”Lord”, and a load of parentheses. So, yes, it’s restricting. But other than that, it allows me to do so much more than regular prose.

I didn’t start exploring poetry until just recently, when I met a bunch of really really talented and capable writers at my writing camp. That’s when I realized that if I wanted to write flowery language without actually having to write non-flowery language, I could just write poetry.

I didn’t expect people to actually come and read my poetry. Perhaps that’s a bit counterintuitive, seeing that I made a website for it and everything, but I didn’t think people would actively search and read my stuff. It surprised me, seeing people liking my posts… and I don’t know whether to feel happy or upset about it.

Happy, because my poetry is being read. Upset, because it puts a bit of pressure on me to always write poetry instead of my blog posts from before.

I mean. Neither of those reasons will stop me from writing poetry, so I guess I’ll just continue writing it.