remember
when the stars set between our knees
and the red hands dragged your lifeless form to the grave

remember
how the windows glowed crimson
and how your ears rung when I stepped over your bloodied hands

remember
when you called for my guilt & admission
but I just sobbed
and collapsed to the floor
at your feet
with my mind floating away

i’ve forgotten
who you are, what you mean, what you meant
and how you had talked to me when we were young.

i’ve forgotten
that you pretend it’s all okay; that we are all broken,
and that that is the one thing alright about us both. us all.

i’ve forgotten
my heartbeat in my ears and my eyes when they focused,
your headlight eyes and your terrified breath.

remember
the sun through the blinds
and the egrets by the coffin…

remember
the moon through the glass
how celestial your form was, hanging

remember
when you called for my guilt & admission
but I just sobbed
and collapsed to the floor

i’ve forgotten
what was at the bottom of the stairs.
how did we get here?

and how do i leave?